Saturday, April 12, 2008
Yesterday I went to a book fair at school. This is another one of those things I love about elementary school. Who wouldn't love a book fair? I bought three books. Two for Paige, and one for me. The one for me was about "Mama Tricks" - ways to keep the kids entertained while in the car, or waiting at the doctor's office. It included "cool Mama" kinds of things. I couldn't wait to look through it.
Last night I said to Roland, "I think I need some help. I went to buy books and I bought two for Paige and the one I bought for myself is about being a Mom. I'm not sure who I am when I'm not a mom or a teacher."
Tomorrow I am going to a scrapbooking crop, so Roland's advice was, "You want help? Don't scrapbook any pictures of Paige this weekend." Don't scrapbook Paige? Then what the heck would I scrapbook? I told him that I'm not sure I have any pictures that don't involve Paige - none that have anything to do with something other than kids, be them my own or my friends at school. I finally had to go back as far as my wedding and honeymoon to think of something that didn't involve kids. Granted, I never did finish my honeymoon album, and I think it'd be fun to work on it, but I was concerned that I had to go back five and a half years to find something that didn't have to do with who I am as mom and teacher, but something that revolved around me.
When I got married I wasn't a mom or a teacher yet. So those things have obviously become a big part of who I am. And I am fine with that. I am ok with reading teacher or mom books for fun. I am ok with enjoying looking at blogs to come up with projects for school or home. But I'm a little concerned if that's all I am.
Paige was six months old when I started back to school to become a teacher. For the passed three years, my life has been a blur of kids and school. I didn't have time for much else. In fact, I can probably count how many times I got to scrapbook during that time on one hand. So I am excited about doing it again. But now that I'm starting to have a little more me time, I'm realizing I don't know what to do with it.
So I'm curious. What do you enjoy doing when you aren't being a mom, or teacher? What kinds of things do you do for yourself?