Seeking Imperfection

I think I've said before that I'm a very visual person. I also have ADD. That said, this blogging thing can be a little addicting and overwhelming to me. I find I click on this link and then that one, and then someone's blog links me to someone else's, and I see all these wonderful ideas, and I just can't get enough crafty clever ideas. But of course, clicking here there and everywhere, I can never remember where I saw what I liked. And half the time, I'll never try anything...I'll just "mean to do it."

I pull articles out of magazines all the time, of things I like, things I think I'll try. I do the same with recipes. I have a TON of recipes, but Roland does the cooking. I do like to bake, but half the time I just show him recipes - "doesn't that sound good?" "I bet I could make that." Then I file it away somewhere, but I don't do anything with it. In that way, I am such a collector. I collect ideas for activities I could do with Paige, or with my kids at school, but we rarely do these things. I spend most of my time online or in books looking for more. Looking for bigger, better. I tend to obsess over looking for the "right" thing to do. And when I do want to bake something? I will obsess over looking for the "right" thing to make, and will go looking for something new, even though I have all of these recipes saved.

I often find myself asking for permission. I ask Roland, "if I make a recipe, and it doesn't turn out very good, is that ok?" But then I still don't try it. I'm not sure if I'm afraid of not being perfect, or what exactly stops me. I am sometimes afraid of wasting time or money, but I don't think that's it exactly. I have said many times that I should put all my things I collect together in a binder or something, but then I ask Roland or Michelle, "does that make me a dork?" I'm so worried about things like that...and I really wish I wasn't.

So when I started with my 2008 goal of imperfection, I started putting some of my magazine pullings into a binder. Of course I didn't get too far with that - I've got to get myself back on track there, so there aren't just magazine clippings all over the house. :) I am determined to not care if this makes me a dork. I am determined to not care if just looking at recipes and not making them makes me a dork - as long as I can be happy with the fact that I just like to look at them, and not be afraid to make them.

Anyway, I started out with this long, rambling post, wondering how all of you organize the millions of ideas that you must see on all of these wonderful blogs. How do you decide what you'd like to try? How do you organize things for later? I know bookmarking doesn't work for me - then I end up with a million little bookmarks and I can never remember what they are for or why I bookmarked the page. (More joys of ADD.) I am also looking for any ideas of how to push yourself to try something, and how to pick something. I am an all or nothing gal - if I can't decide what to do, I won't do anything, and that doesn't make me happy either.

Any ideas would be appreciated, and if you read all of this, thanks. I am trying to push myself to blog for myself, about what I need to blog about, and not worry so much about making "perfect" posts and getting tons of comments, because that isn't the point of trying to be imperfect, now is it? :)